I’ve been struggling with building my personal website  for a long time. I’m sure a lot of people have stuggled with this, but I always feel like I have my fingers in so many pies, that narrowing a focus for a site has been kind of hard.

Eventually, I decided the solution was to put my focused topics on OTHER sites, and then make this site more like a portfolio portal.

But, of course, there are times when I just want to put stuff here, if only to document it and link to it from elsewhere.

Lately, this site has been focused on my art: music, film, books, short fiction. But then where do I put the nerdy stuff? Like, I think I totally just cracked the code on the problem with lack of frame-accuracy in the timeupdate event for HTML5 video tags. I could totally write up how I synced up nearly-frame-accurate CSS3 transformations with running video.

But of course, as a comedian and entertainer, the previous topic is neither funny nor particularly entertaining, except in its extreme nerditude. Or maybe I underestimate the nerditude of people who visit. Maybe I undervalue my creativity with something like coding an incredibly complex webpage. Maybe all my nerdery is also art?

Maybe I just don’t understand who visits. Maybe I don’t know my audience.

Or maybe this just points to me not always knowing why I write, and for whom I write.

Maybe this is a kind of mid-mid-life crisis. Jesus, am I only 6 years and 5 months from being 40?

I may have diverged from whatever I intended to write here today. But at least I wrote. For some reason, that feels the most important. To keep writing, even if it doesn’t make sense, even if I can’t logically tie it to other pieces of writing.

And, also, perhaps withholding any part of who I am or what I do from a place of personal expression just isn’t working anymore. Maybe it should all be here: nerdery, pontification, comedy, prayer, and Things That Were Too Long To Put On Twitter.

I’m sorry, what was I saying?